Tuesday, May 15, 2012

autoimmune merry-go-round

I'd like to get off this ride.  My antibodies have INCREASED with my gluten-free diet.  Crap.  Which means heavy metal toxicity testing and chelation is the next step.  It's all fine and good, but really?  Seriously?  Someone stop this freaking ride, I want off.  It's so disheartening to do everything you've been asked to do in order to feel better, and for it not to work.  I will get past this hurdle, just wallowing in self-pity at the moment.

In addition to autoimmune hell, I have aggravated my ilopsoas and have spent the past few days in pain, hobbling around like a decrepit old lady.  Not funny.  I want off this damned ride too.  Youth is truly wasted on the young, they don't know enough to appreciate it!

Over the past few days I've been reading the Fifty Shades of Grey triology.  *blushing* just thinking about that book.  It's hot.  So hot, I feel the need to hide it so that my kids don't find out what I've been reading.  Every now and again, it  does the heart good to read a naughty book, and blush like a 16 year old girl.  Must be a sign of middle age.

Hmmphf!  Middle age.  Good lord.


cargillwitch said...

it is truly frustrating to work hard changing lifestyle only to see it not impact your health as quickly in the direction you had hoped.
I am at a similar place.
I had forseen that mid life would see changes in energy etc, but not this much and as abruptly as they have occured. It is hard to take in all at once.

Nicole said...

I'm very frustrated! And disheartened that lifestyle changes aren't going to help. While I feel better without gluten in my diet, it is not the root of my autoimmune difficulties. Long gone are the days of enough energy to take on the world :)