Saturday, May 19, 2012

I think I really hurt it this time

Last week was a week of craziness.  And it involved too much sitting--at a conference, in the van on the way to Ottawa, in the stands in the gym for basketball, in the van for the drive home from Ottawa.  And it has all made my iliopsoas really, really hurt.  I couldn't even walk a week ago.  I still went to school and hobbled around, and it's still not better.  It's a bit better, but I still am limping (and now have a sore back because of it).  I think I really hurt it this time.  It's always gotten better after a few days of babying.  *gulp* A friend suggested I might have torn something and need medical intervention to fix it.  Crap.  On my to do list this week is to actually make an appointment with a chiropractor that specializes in sports injuries (what started this whole deal was overdoing it at yoga in October, coupled with running), and if that means time off work, then that's what I will do.  Because this nonsense has to stop.  I need to exercise!  No exercise, and an autoimmune disease that makes me gain weight makes Nicole a fat chick.  Not cool.

In other news, work is insanely stressful.  The end of the year is looming, I have a ton of stuff we haven't learned yet, and I feel like I do nothing but manage behaviour.  Don't get me wrong, I love my job.  I love kids.  But I am ready for a break.  This long weekend didn't come a moment too soon.  My class is now up to 22 boys and 5 girls.  It wears me out.  And I have report cards to write, and I'm taking a course.  That was self-inflicted, report cards are not.  Why I ask myself, why?  Because as my good friend at school says, I'm crazy.  Obviously.

As I wrote the other day, my dietary change has not improved the whole Hashimoto's situation.  Which is causing me more stress.  Arrrggghhh.  But it will get better.  It has to.  And since gluten-free wasn't working, I ate some gluten yesterday.  I won't be repeating that.  While it hasn't improved my autoimmune issues, apparently it does impact my system.  Not in a positive way.

Anyway, this is a long weekend and the sun is shining, it's supposed to be hot, gardening is on the agenda, life is good.


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

autoimmune merry-go-round

I'd like to get off this ride.  My antibodies have INCREASED with my gluten-free diet.  Crap.  Which means heavy metal toxicity testing and chelation is the next step.  It's all fine and good, but really?  Seriously?  Someone stop this freaking ride, I want off.  It's so disheartening to do everything you've been asked to do in order to feel better, and for it not to work.  I will get past this hurdle, just wallowing in self-pity at the moment.

In addition to autoimmune hell, I have aggravated my ilopsoas and have spent the past few days in pain, hobbling around like a decrepit old lady.  Not funny.  I want off this damned ride too.  Youth is truly wasted on the young, they don't know enough to appreciate it!

Over the past few days I've been reading the Fifty Shades of Grey triology.  *blushing* just thinking about that book.  It's hot.  So hot, I feel the need to hide it so that my kids don't find out what I've been reading.  Every now and again, it  does the heart good to read a naughty book, and blush like a 16 year old girl.  Must be a sign of middle age.

Hmmphf!  Middle age.  Good lord.